Heaven Help My Heart 12/5/09

How Sick I Was For Almost a Year

This year was a hard one for my family. This year was not as hard as last year was, however, hard and emotional in different ways. I feel as if this year, I am the one who fought for my life. No one died. I did not have to eulogize anyone, Thank G-d! However, as stated in the title, I have been sick for almost a full year. It started in February, with a weight loss, but I eat healthy so I thought nothing of it. A month later in March, my belly started to fill up like never before. I began to look pregnant. I had migraines daily, and my belly got so big that my belly button inverted. I am not able or advised to have a baby so this was extra hard! Because I'm strong, and perform, I made up a clever story about my 'pseudo baby' as it was easier than telling people I was in heart failure and the doctors were fighting over whether it was my liver or my heart. This went on for 6 months. I had multiple belly taps, and the fluid, called ascites, would come back literally within...

To Live Through September With a CHD

As a child, I always called September “hell month”. I called it this because I like other CHDer’s grew up with learning disabilities. What does this have to do with September and the name I chose? Well it is when school began again and it was scary to have to deal with a new teacher/s and explain that you have a learning problem, and give them notes fr...

The Chance of A Lifetime

In 2013 I took many chances, the best was the one of a lifetime. Not everyone was behind me on this decision at this time in my life, I was fighting a horrible cold and had just started a new job, and so my voice was pretty hoarse. However, being my go-getter attitude I thought if I don’t take this chance I would be doing the ACHA and myself a disservice. I practiced, rehearsed, changed my song two weeks before, and figured out the 90 seconds allotted, and with help picked out my outfit the night before. At 6:00am on November 17th my alarm went off, though I was already awake. I felt like a five year old getting ready for her birthday party on the day of her birthday and putting on the paper crown. Feeling like a princess knowing something incredible is about to happen and it will be like no other day before or af...

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