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I was so unbelievably productive today I can't believe it despite the heat. I think the disgusting weather was pushing me forward to a cool, relaxing shower in my mind. I spent close to 2 hours in the library and was then on my way to Queens. I packed as much as I possibly could without passing out! Literally!! It was HOT in the apartment that when I left the A/C had not even started to cool the place off. Pack a box, sit in front of the A/C with a glass of water. Slow but I did manage to pack most of my linen closet. The heat is totally messing around with my internal thermometer but I have to pack because July 22, will be here before I know it and then I can take a day to lay in the coolth of the A/C in my new place. My new place is my old place or my safety spot in tag. Home. That's right for the mean time I will be living in my old room, with some new flair my two kitty babes, Rocket and Rescue. We will stay here till I am more settled with my self and than we will have a new adventure. Today a great friend said to me, "Imagine how good you will feel when you get your stuff out of storage?!"

I had not thought of it that way, I've been feeling so down on myself for falling down in life that I did not actually foresee a time when I would again be On My Own. LOL! Theater Joke. First off I know that when I get my furniture and books from storage I will not be on my own. No one in this world is truly alone and if you think so I'll sing you half a dozen showtunes explaining it!!I have to start to come to grips with the situation at hand and leave the emotions in a box for a rainy day!

Being so productive today made me feel so strong and like my old self. It's good to know she's not gone forever, she just went on a much needed break. I mean when you've been through some of the shit, I've been through it's not that unexpected that at some point the system will go on overload! Don't get me wrong I'm still
trying to figure out where I belong right now as I stated in my last post.

I have to stick to my guts and I will find where I belong. Perhaps making new friends 10 years or more younger than me is not a bad thing, I look their age anyway! I need to not be so rigid, take a small dare or two. If I can try something that is out of my norm within the next few months, than I'm positive that day will come where Emily was right, I will get my stuff out of storage and it will feel great! I will hold on to the fact that my true friends have not given up on me and believe this bump in the road will pass. For once, I'll let them be right ;)

Thanks Emily tomorrow I will wear the Wonder Woman tank top, not because I have all my strength back but it's a tank and it's supposed to be a balmy 96-100 degrees.

xoxo
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