I did not realize how long it's been since I've blogged. I've had a lot to say, but was a bit scared to put it out there. I realize nowI don't have to and can write but not publish it to Face Book, or just write in my journal.
I start this year smarter and stronger than I started last year. Obviously I will NEVER get over the tragic loss of my older brother Andrew. I do dream about him quite often which is a source of comfort, but is always a disappointment when I wake up and realize the reality, that is a constant source of pain which we all feel responsible for.
I did however do a lot of self work and inner soul searching. Every year people make resolutions. How many of those stick? I'm not making resolutions, because I will be the first one to drop the ball on one. This year I will change 2 things in my life that can be measured and if I fall off, I can always get back on. I really enjoy yoga, but have not done it in months. I will include yoga 2 days out of the week. If this leads to more days or more exercise so that's a good thing. Should I stop two days is not hard to get back into, the videos are 30 to 45 minutes long, so why should that be hard? It's not.
Another thing I've learned this year is to be more optimistic. I'm not going to focus on what I don't have, but on all the wonderful things I do still have in my life. I have some wonderful friends, and a supportive family. I've learned I can't bitch about being single if I'm not in the game. So I'm officially in the game!
I still have my dreams that with belief and optimism can absolutely come true!! If unfortunately you are petty and negative you are not going to remain my friend because I'm trying to stick to the bright side, and don't need other people's constant negativity and destructive thoughts in my life. Please understand if you are my friend or family, I will always be there to help as I've always been no matter what the circumstances are, I'm in your corner. But if you are out to hurt me and make empty promises and are fake, I'm not going to let you do that to me anymore. That's the biggest lesson I've learned.
2010 was the hardest and most gut wrenching year of my life but no one is going to ruin the self improvement I've done on myself!!
I wish you all a year of happiness, health and success, and remember if you're there for me, I'm there for you! ♫
I start this year smarter and stronger than I started last year. Obviously I will NEVER get over the tragic loss of my older brother Andrew. I do dream about him quite often which is a source of comfort, but is always a disappointment when I wake up and realize the reality, that is a constant source of pain which we all feel responsible for.
I did however do a lot of self work and inner soul searching. Every year people make resolutions. How many of those stick? I'm not making resolutions, because I will be the first one to drop the ball on one. This year I will change 2 things in my life that can be measured and if I fall off, I can always get back on. I really enjoy yoga, but have not done it in months. I will include yoga 2 days out of the week. If this leads to more days or more exercise so that's a good thing. Should I stop two days is not hard to get back into, the videos are 30 to 45 minutes long, so why should that be hard? It's not.
Another thing I've learned this year is to be more optimistic. I'm not going to focus on what I don't have, but on all the wonderful things I do still have in my life. I have some wonderful friends, and a supportive family. I've learned I can't bitch about being single if I'm not in the game. So I'm officially in the game!
I still have my dreams that with belief and optimism can absolutely come true!! If unfortunately you are petty and negative you are not going to remain my friend because I'm trying to stick to the bright side, and don't need other people's constant negativity and destructive thoughts in my life. Please understand if you are my friend or family, I will always be there to help as I've always been no matter what the circumstances are, I'm in your corner. But if you are out to hurt me and make empty promises and are fake, I'm not going to let you do that to me anymore. That's the biggest lesson I've learned.
2010 was the hardest and most gut wrenching year of my life but no one is going to ruin the self improvement I've done on myself!!
I wish you all a year of happiness, health and success, and remember if you're there for me, I'm there for you! ♫
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