A YEAR WITHOUT MUSIC!

A YEAR WITHOUT MUSIC!

This memory could not be more timely. April 5,2016 i had a major stroke. This Wednesday will be one year since my stroke. For the first 2 months all I could say to people was "I had a stroke" which sounded like stwoke. Music had not even occurred to me as I had many complications that were not directly associated with my stroke.

But why am I sharing all of this information with you, is because the part of my brain that was affected or is it effected? Was language. I planned to sit down today at my computer which us still hard for me to do texting us easier with my right hand weakness. Oh I forgot to mention that I was temporary paralyzed on on right side for 24-48 hours. But "I had a stroke".

I would have to l this year as a year without music. Couldn't recall what I'd forgotten and then sobbed when I remembered what I forgot without remembering the music, show, favorite singers... you name, I was like a blank slate. (Siri)-is siting here spelling words for me that I can't recall fast enough for my mind. I would have to say that in the last 2 weeks I've had a lot of words, melodies, shows, and who sang in them come back to me. :'') Such a blessing and a credit to how hard and long I've worked in speech therapy for 10 months.

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