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Happy New Year!

Remember the true meaning of Love and Life.  Tomorrow is just another Day! Resolutions are silly.  They are really just changes in our behavior.  You can start them any time.  No one says Jan.1 is the only time to start. In my status I stated that I would not take other's nonsense (crap) because it's negative.  Well I have not for a few months now, and have been trying to let go of the lies and empty promises I've been fed.  If people do that to you, they are no longer your friend.  If they are not there for you when the chips are really down, reevaluate and move on.  People change and that's just the way it works, no matter the pain.

I am done apologizing for voicing my feelings and opinions to others whom I feel have upset me. (This is a general and true statement, not directed to anyone who's going to read this). 

I know when I have done something wrong and when I have not.  The moment I realize I have done something wrong, usually unintentionally I instantly own up to it, and try to correct it. But apologizing for my feelings, no more. I've been working on that for a while and it is a hard behavior to change!  

Be honest and loving to yourself and your family and friends.  If you get the same in return than you know who is on your side. Just remember Friends are the Family you choose for yourself!

 Happy New Year. Be kind to yourself and may your dreams come true and your expectations be real and attainable. Remember Baby Steps.


xoxo  Always, Ellen <3 <3

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